Weiqi and Jackie

2011-05-13T10:59:00.000-07:00

soooo long never update blog.. thought of actually abdonding it.. but on second thought.. nvm..
it was onces part of me...

this few days my house is like having a war.
Parents unable to commnicate with each other..
need me to pass message..
or they know is to complain..

n then in the end push all the fault to me..
seriously i hate it..

nvm now i cannot even have peace at home.. with my brother gg every where i go.. like a gen pi chong.. talking n talking..
seriously irritating.. oh well i still have to ren..

okay maybe no more sad /angry stuff..

currently i am watching a new show called guo ming ying xiong..
n an zai yong really very shuai..
but of cause my JJ is stll more shuai hahas
the show first ep a bit boring.. at first want to stop watching already..
then i thought for a while.. is only the first ep.. it should give it a second chance.. so i
continue to watch.. it quite nice after rall..

but the actor is joe chang.. i still perfer he act the show as zhishi.. that show he more shuai..
zhishu n xiang qing is like a havenly match couple.. :) too bad that is just a show..
that can never be in real..
as nobody is so smart that have a IQ of 200.. even is that is so..
i don't think i can be his gf.. hahas
okay think too much..

hey n i lastest news... tomoro i will be gg k boxx with my friends.. n guess what we will dian all JJ songs :) hahas cus we are from JJFC and we all love JJ to the max.. except my brother n peiqi's tutior n Jinghao (Show fan) hahas though he is from JJFC..

okay la i have talk alot on what have happen to me this few weeks.. summarised..

cya soon :)

2010-09-16T02:44:00.000-07:00

oh i think my blog is totally dead.
but i will still blog.
it had been some time seen the last time i blog.hahas:)
okay let me see.. what have i been to , n i haven shared..

okay last posy was abt captain ball. which is really long..
okay, how to start.. recenently i had been to JJ's Shop
SMUDGE opening and xiao gui's Event and Xiao zhu event..
and lot s of studing.

lets start with JJ hahas

erm on the day i went not so early, just chong to orchard to see him right after school.hahas
i meet Yuxin together with Jinhao.
and saw An An ,Jolene jie,adelene.
we were not very excited at first.But when JJ arrived we were crazy hahas :) we got to queue to get into the shop. He was at the cashier serving us. and i was
OMG OMG JJJJ is JJ.hahas in my heart of cause. anywhere i go, my eyes just won't get off him.
We found the queue and we all bought the badges. SMG badges. hahas
This is what happen at the cashier, together with JJ.
JJ:*smiles#'hello"
ME:*smile* n i ask,"my exams are coming, can u say Jiayou to me? (heart beating dem fast)
3 sec past...
JJ: *place his hands infront of me*
ME:*place my hands in his hands"
(shake hands)
JJ: Jiayou
ME:smile*"you must jiayou also okay?
JJ:okay i will.
is like so OMG right!!
JJ saying jiayou to me.. i like always have been dreaming abt it. n is dream come true.

okay next...
Xiao zhu, luo zhi xiang Event
let me see, it broke the record..
i went to see JJ, due to priverlagies from JJFC
i can get hiw signature in 1 hour plus.
n i took me 6 hours to get xiao zhu sighnature..
i went to imm at 3 plus when the event started at7.which i already very early.

den time pass n pass finally me turn.
Though he is not JJ. my heart will also beat very fast.
This is what happen..
no words, just action.
he looked at me. den looked at me from head to toe 2 times.
den he sign the album.
den he shook hands with me den i left.
of cus natually all i do is to stand there on the stage keep looking at him, n smile to him.
den i gave him the letter that i made for him.

now Xiao Gui event!!!!
he is Dem cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
seriously he is also dem shy. but he is the best i only had to wait 30 mins for the sighnature.hahas
though after seeing the sighnature is like abit not worth.but seeing him smile, melts me..
guess what.. xiao gui is a left hander..
hahas
as usual, this is what happen..
same no words just actions.
xioa gui looked at me, sign the album. look at me and shake hands n i left, after giving him the card that i made for him. but xiao gui, i really enjoy myself.hahas

okay the end of story ... i need to bath le. see u guys soon :)

2010-07-27T04:19:00.000-07:00

okay blogging again! ahahas

certain things had happen, and i am very confuse.
hahas.example the captain ball thing.
i really hope i could play in the game, the chance is very low...
haiz i sure no chance de, hahas.

and of cause Jackie he has been really weird this few days, he has been following where aver i go? is it because he is lonely? or he just wants my attention. hahas:) but of cause he is always be baby.hahas will love him for life.

n not forgeting JJ, my handsome prince. hahas. He is having his concert again. wa haha
dk whether is good news anot. good as in can c him more, and hear him sing. but bad is my spend money, den my pocket will be ememty again.

haiz recently really broke, no spare cash. must save le. hahas:)
hahas stay happie :) Jiayou!!

2010-06-23T10:01:00.000-07:00

Hehehesss :)
TOday i went to JJ's event :) dem happy i am standing in the first row. n the view of him is super clear!!! haha:)

his event is @ marina bay sands.
n is a mini concert for a few stars..

haha:) n JJ he sang 5 songss :):)
-ken pi chong
-unchained melody
-di ji ge yi bai tian
-jiang nan
-yi qing nian yi hou

haha:) dem happy he charged me up!
now i have energy again to face new challenges!! haha:)

2010-06-22T08:35:00.000-07:00

Today i went out with stella.

we went walking n walking...
we shop through 4 shopping centre.
-far east plaza
-cineleausure
-313
-ion
we walk until our leg dem pain

haha:) at first we want to vist SMUDGE!! but end up i forgot which mrt station to stop,
i forget is it orchard or summer set. n i choses orchard.
n is the wrong 1.

so decided to soon lu go STAGE!! (show luo) shop first, the 1 flagshop at far east plaza.

den we walk all the way to summer set to vist SMUDGE!!( cineleusure)n STAGE(scape) the 2nd flag shop.
we den walk to 313 to shop.hahas!! n there got 1 4 story forever 21. i didn't know that untill today. haha:)

den we went to tampines for some short shopping.
haha:) what a great day with stella today :)

2010-06-09T12:11:00.001-07:00

hey!! guess what JJ is coming back to singapore for his shop SMG official opening! :)

2010-06-07T06:36:00.000-07:00

Today i shall annocunce i am officially separated with dulcia they all.
well though have same passion, but don't have the topic. haha:)

though i am bit yi han, well is fate cannot be force.
well maybe i am too much for them haha:)
i am still the happie me:)
i won't be irrtated by the ppl who dislike me :)
well they r helping me. haha:)
i remember 2 years back, when i am in sec 2, the same thing happen, well it help me greatly in my grades.

i beileve this time it will too. haha:)somemore this time taking o level. haha:) JIAYOU!!!
this year is a year to work hard weiqi!!, no time for this zi ma lu dou thing :)

yup lets aim a B3 for math:) jiayou!!

2010-06-04T09:24:00.000-07:00

I need to take a deep breath to cool myself down.

today all thanks to Ms liu "wonderful words " abt JJ

now there is a page create by someone who say that THE YOG SONG SANG BY JJ IS RETARDED!!! this made me soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo angry serious.

at first i took it as a joke! i didn't put it in my heart but if someone i know create this page n crtising both JJ n the song i will get really angry with that person. when JJ is just doing his job.
his job is to compose n sing as a artise, he is just doing his part in YOG!! y must ppl do that do critise him. does that make u feel better?!!

u r not perfect!!! so don't expect JJ to be!!

to JJ: if u c that page ignore it!! no matter what happen WE JM will always be by your side. we will forever be with u. cus we understand u unlike the others that has nth to do on earth .

JM lets fight back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-05-28T07:49:00.000-07:00

Yesterday! sth sad happen my 1 month old caterpillar died!! :(
i will really miss it, i dream of it crawling even in my sleep.
i am gg to let it off to the natural enviroment that it surpose to be.

haiz i can't think if what would happen to if 1 day jackie pass away(touch wood)
i think i will cry for a few months. as he is my baby, he is part of my life.

thinking of that on the 23 may i went to xiao zhu qian chang hui.
there is alot of ppl as expected haha. n i queue for more then 6 hours O gosh.
this is what happen when i saw him.
it is in chinese but i translate it
C:erm this is a card that my friend n i made it for u.
XZ:*look at me*
C:*smiling widely*
XZ:*look me from top to toe 2 times*
XZ:* took the card*
XZ:* shock hands with me*
XZ: * pass me the lyric book which he just sign*
C: Thank you!

reali weird of him, i have never seen a minxin looking at his fans from top to toe.
wondering what was he thinking at that time sia.
was i looking weird that made him look me in this way or is it because i wear his clothes n hat???
even my handsome prince JJ didn't do that to me:) hahaha

next EXAM 'O' level chinese coming le is this mon!! o gosh!!
i hope i can get a A2 n i am happy le.
hoping that the paper is not that diffcult.

N class BBQ, hehe quite excited hehe.lol

ks gtg le will blog again soon :)

2010-05-13T02:05:00.000-07:00

haha too long never uo date le. so now i am soooo gg to update.
just 2 more papers left!! woo!

JIayou! haha!! actally nth to post. cya guys soon! haha
btw 23 may xiao zhu coming!!! singapore!! any1 gg???

2010-04-24T06:56:00.000-07:00

Hooooo.! tomoro gg to the star awards place!! so excited!!
FIrst!! get a chance to go IR!!!!
second: c JJ LIN!!1
3rd: see other stars!!!

hahaha omg! reali very excited hehe:)

2010-04-16T07:31:00.000-07:00

hehe time to blog.. woohoo

Exams are comming time to say O NO!!!! i haven start my revision hahaha.

This few days busy usual busy with school stuff.

n yesterday i perform for my red house.

i feel dem stupid, my pom pom got stuck on my clothes.

is like what the hell sia.den i got sooooooo nervous that i dance wrongly.

stupid me.

n guess what today i brought 1 super cool specs.

2010-04-08T05:42:00.000-07:00

The photos we took we WAYNE LIM JUN JIE!!!! Our idol!!!!

2010-04-02T07:20:00.000-07:00

on that day i look at the way 1 of my friend reacted to me, n i suddenly wake up.

i told myself i should really let the matter down, as i know deep in my heart i don't want to lose her this friend.

yesterday i look through facebook, i saw 3 of my good friends adding her on facebook, actually i am not angry not i am sad, my heart got bitter feeling.cus knowing that i n her r impossible anymore,but at the same time knowing my friends r gg to be close with her.i don't think you guys will understand cus not every1 have experience this.

at first i told myself i cannot add her, cus i promise her not to distube her anymore. but after knowing that she took a photo with the present i gave her, i thought for very long, n i tried adding her n JJ togher. though i know if i want them both to add me is super impossible.

but as i aspected both of them rejected me. haiz i should not have add her, n now i am sad again.

actaully i am reali happy that i still have JJ to motivated me in life, no matter what happen, looking at him will just make me smile, he would just blow my sadness away.

a few days ago i reailse sth there is another kind of ppl living in this world.

ppl who are popular where ever they go, they don't take friendship as their first place.

because they will never be afraid of lonelyness,so they will not think of how others will feel.

but they have never though,how the lonely person will feel.

without friends, do u guys know how terrible is that feeling.u guys don't know just because she guys r popular.haiz i am reali sad for that friend of mine.

i reali appricated if u r one of them we deep inside accept who i am.

i may not know, but i will be able to feel it naturally.

all i can reali tell myself to to be happy n think postive no matter what happen.

i must be back to the old me, the postive minded person.

though so many bad things have influence me last year.

but i aways try to remind myself, i am who i am, i must learn to be brave , n not hide behind the bush all the time.

weiqi jiayou!!! jiayou!!! beileve i can do it! jiayou!!!!

2010-03-30T04:23:00.000-07:00

it all started when i met adelene n JiaQi Jie.
we went on the train to bugis for JJ photo taking session.
n to celebrate dorothy's belated birthday.

we went to mac to eat, den to the food court, n den c-ing dorothy opening our presents....
den we went down to queue, the queue was long, as we waited we r so dem excited abt it,

then our handsome prince JJ LIN appeared,wear SMG tee and jeans( as predected)
he sang bei dui bei yong bao. i was dem happy as i could see him thanks to dorothy, haha she let me the place.

den the moment that we JM has been waiting for.
close interaction with JJ LIN
=) when it was my turn...

JJ:hello
ME:smiling back*
JJ:hold my left hand tight,like boyfriends n girlfriends do*
Me:*smiling back at him* *heat was beating fast** lying on his back*
(dem cool sia) hahaha
JJ n I: *both took our hands away* *shy*
ME: took up my right hand n shock hands with me.
JJ:Thank you :)

I was like OMG OMG, he look me in the eye, he made eye contact with me, n for that 3s he look at me in the eye, in his mind there is only me. IS LIKE OMG OMG OMG. hahaha

den JJ party 4, we went to eat dinner first,den we went to scape
though we r not at the front, but not too back either, 3rd row.
n i saw JJ LIN dancing ken pi chong live :) OMG OMG
n other songs too. cool sia,n hor the autie lucy i find him very dirty minded,cus he keep saying *** things lo.

den atohrapht session i shock hands with him again :D hahaha so alotoghet i touch his hands 3 times.
JJ:*look at me*
me:JJ this is for u
JJ:thankyou*rising his hand n wanting to shake my hands*
at that moment my hands was't free, right hand holding album, left hand hold ing phone.

i like a bit slow. i look at him, den my right hand ,den my left hand n back at him.
den i reacted by putting all my things to my left hands n shock hands with him. hahaha:D
JJ:thankyou :)
so dem happy

overrall tired but had great fun :)

2010-03-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

back to post :D

erm yesterday, the day that all cheerleaders r waiting for, the sports day.
but it kept on raining n the sports day was cancel.
totally waste of money for some of us.
as we went to buy the ribbon n tatoos, but. haiz.

next a waiting JJ photo taking n JJ party 4 :D omg :D
can't wait to c JJ lin again.he is reali my baby.
hahaha:D

2010-03-17T06:38:00.000-07:00

hahaha here is the photo i thought i was beside him, but i think i am not. haha
i got to crazy den. haha

2010-03-16T07:45:00.000-07:00

JJ说，像这种主题性质的歌迷聚会比较少办，但1年中至少会有一次歌迷主动安排的近距离聚会。日前的“e乐大赏”庆功派对中，近40名歌迷到台上和他合唱《加油》，他表示：“我知道他们会上台，我们也会合唱一首歌，但我不知道是这样的形式。”

　　他赞歌迷唱功棒，还会beatbox（口技）、跳舞，看到歌迷如此用心，让他当下惊喜、感动。

　　“当晚和歌迷合唱时有点魂不守舍，因为习惯一个人在台上，有他们的感觉不一样，比较即兴、温馨。那不是表演，是一次分享和回馈。”

2010-03-13T23:29:00.000-08:00

Photos :D MY DEAR JJ LIN :)

2010-03-13T23:12:00.000-08:00

After days n weeks of rehersing our performance,
there our wonderful performance is on stage.

yesterday it was a great night.
WE JJFC (Jun Jie Fan Club) performed with JJ LIN on stage. wa hahahaha.
aat first before the performance i was nervours, but when i am on stage i actually was not nervours, i think because i don't know any1 . ahaha

n guess what i said hiiii to JJ. n he looked at me. is like OMG OMG OMG...
then after the performance we still get a chance to take a group photo with him, n i was standing just beside him.hahaha n i even shake hands with him, hahahahaha

i know to u guys non JJ fan, u guys will think is totally lame. but to me is like OMG OMG OMG.
hahaha. before the performance we got the rehersal on the real stage.
n guess who i saw.... i SAW BY2 OMG right, n i saw them live singing n dancing.
but i only r ecorded the little bit of singing part cus the incharge person say cannot take any video or pictures.n i heard xiao gui singing live. hahaha

omg lo.. i made a sound recording. hahah.

2010-03-06T06:13:00.000-08:00

okay i told myself today that i will blog.so i will haha

okay actually many things happen.
first is ALL THAT JAZZ performance at 201. so scary can n silly me , i made mistakes.

den is the cheerleading thing.
haiz, i feel like giving up. but i will tell myself not to.
i can see what is the problem with our dance.
the problem is every1 got every1's ideas n want to do it their way. including me.
i thought i could lead this.

but actually i can't.all well i admit i am sooo not a good leader.
i was born to follow others not to lead.
i have learnt that having experience is not the only factor to lead. u will need to learn how to inspire ppl, u will need to make other have trust in u.

but apparently i only have 1 factor which is experience. haiz i can't insipire ppl or make ppl trust me.haiz... i guess it takes time.

saying of cheerleading, i miss my primary school time.
we reali work as a team, n we don't blame each other. we help each other, we gave suggestion, n we took in all the suggestion to make us the x-radders.

the time i remember ,i think our cheer was.
"we r x- radders cheerleaders,we show u our power"
i forgot the front part.

though i was not the zhu jiao, but i feel imporatant in my team, i feel happy to be performing.
this r reali my memories that i never want to forget. now i am in this cheerleading thing.
i will do my best. i will help, but 1 thing for sure, i give up in leading.
hahaha....

my ex tutior,Charmaine Jie once told me "have faith in yourself never let other intimidate u"
i found it reali meaingful.but i guess i can have faith in myself but, ..... i will let other intimidate me as well. hiaz i will try to be more intipendent n make other rely on me n make other trust me in who i am. haha i know i should always have confident in myself.

yesterday also i was watching a show, the show is saying abt a fat girl. who does not have any friends n her classmate hates her n make fun of her when she is young.when she starts to work ,she cannot to find a job, when she suddenly found a job, her tong shi bully her.n poor thing nobody likes her in her family besiedes her mother.her father found her useless, as she can't do well in her studies, her brother bully her all the time.
untill 1 day she found this group of friends that reali care for her.
but she want to attract attention that made 1 of her friend name shui pi reali angry.
she is so angry that she leave the group but end up getting rape.
she is so gutty that she apologise to shui pi as she thinks that is her fault to qurrel with her. but shui pi refuse to forgive her, n shui pi end up killing her.

this story i find it reali like my life, but i was alot lucky den her.
when i was young, when i am in child care.no1 likes me, n they refuse to be my friend.just because i am not as good looking as them, my hand writhing is not good.
in JJFC i fell slight friendship, but i am reali worry that they will leave me 1 day like the rest.
thats my life i will have to accept it.

JIAYOU!!! weiqi

2010-02-21T03:54:00.000-08:00

hahaha yesterday guess where i go.
haha i think u r right, JJ event hahaha.
i went to the sheng siong event yesterday, i saw how the show was film as it will live.
n i kinda saw myself on tv haha. OMG.
all i can say is JJ LIn i love u man n roxx.

tell u guys yeasterday a lot funny thing happen ah.
first when we reach medicorp we selected some ppl for the dance video.
n hor i went for the nobody dance. OMG shy.
nobody record my dance before leh.

haha den we went in to the recording studio.
we took photos after photos. haha n OMG OMGOMG
guess who did i see next. JJ of cus haha he sang the song 100 days
i hold on the the JJ board n wave to him while i sat on my seat.

haha:D thought the thing end late n i went home very late but is was worth. haha

2010-02-12T04:52:00.000-08:00

i realise it has been quite some time since i blog the last time.
haha.. Today i had CNY performance. so nervours can.
cus this time i at the first row leh. OMG scary. haha

we dance the song all that jass n better in time.
i think beacause i abit nervours so some of the time i dance slighty faster than the rest. n guess what i wasn't making i contact with the audience. but eye contact with the fan. cus i too nervours i don't dare to look at the audience even my own class. haha n today we had thick make up as usual, thick eye browns, drawing the scary eye liner thingy, putting dark colours eye shodow n pink lip gross. o haha i look like a ghost.

n Yesterday i created a new singapore record, all thanks to my school.
the entire school climb up the stairs of certain blks n knock on to the door of the residents n say hii n tell them abt total defence n heathy living. lol baby sister n me, just walk up n down only we lack. haha then the entire school when to the field to make the 3 letters YOG (youth olmipic games) haha n it made me stand under the hot sun at 12 plus for like 45 mins.

but i created a new record so is also kinda fun.
n i don't if i should even let it down.cus i find that she will never change she will always be that da xiao jie that everytime need ppl to rang her de.n by ranging her is like giveing her a chance for her to bully me,treating me like a nu yong.though i was not as happy as before but is better now i guess.though i still got left out some time.But i guess they need time, they can't just take me in like that. i am just not their side to them.all well. Jiayou

2010-01-27T23:46:00.000-08:00

I Realise today that i don't fit in anywhere.
n every1 is treating me transparent.
when i already tried my best to be social. but nobody even give a dem to me.
just because i am not popular in class.

I guess the only ppl we cared for me n trusted me like a friend, treated me like a friend are only Jackie n JJFfriends. to say the truth.

i suddenly have a feeling that ppl r using me n just treating me like a nu yong.
i don't know y.

i reali treated u guys as my good friends but u guys all left me out together.i guess i reali don't fit it.i respected u guys as a friend n verytime u help u guys out.u guys just hurt me deeper.
i don't know what to say for myself.
i guess the only word left is Jiayou!

2010-01-25T23:15:00.000-08:00

haiz... so many things is happening around.i am not gg to side any1.
friendship is seriously sth that is reali preisous.. lose it n u will never get it back.
so treasure your friends,appreaciate what they have done for u.they might have scolded u, but they r just trying to help u. yes i know nobody likes being scolded like that, but u could just tell her that u don't like it.

this may be just a simple tie for u guys to overcome.
it will reali help if both of u forgive n forget abt it.
it has past. just let it past. there is no point of giving each other a cold shoulder.
u guys r good friends right. don't because of that stupid busted guy, n spolit the friendship betwwen u guys.Do u guys think is worth for this kind of guy???

com on i beilve u guys r muture enough to know that friendship is a golden gift from god.
if u have a chance to be friends,this is a kind of fate.
just face the problem.. n not hidding the problem.
i beileve that 4 years if friendship n over come this small problem.

so just forgive n forget okay! just stay happie!
JiaYou!( JJ new Song) hehes

2010-01-21T04:07:00.001-08:00

OKay blogging time..

haha. this few days dem busy with homwork.. CNY performances.. n ASP program..

haiz busy like a bubble bee. i hope i still have time for JJ events haha..

n guess what my face in on my school website..

n is like so big.. OMG SHY haha

first time like that lo.. haha so dem happy also..

2010-01-12T05:23:00.000-08:00

To my dearest readers n friends.

Thanks for the support it really do helps.
n i tell u guys a good news. i am in the through train streem.
means i don't have to take N levels n i can take my O levels straight.
at first i dem scare i cannot make it.. haha
but i think too much appearently haha.

Now i just reailse sth abt myself.
yesterday i was watching a dancing videos of Show luo,Rannie,Cyndi and of cus our dear JJ Lin.
i learn the dance steps all. i realise i reali love dancing more den i know.
everytime i dance whether infront of the mirror or in the toliet or my laptop.
i wil fell happy, i can smile everytime i dance. it reali gave me the motivation to move on. haha

N replyes to my Dearest caring friends that cares for me.

To Adelene:Thanks u r a great friend. u too, Must JIAYOU!! n stay happie :D work hard for your O levels this year.

To Emerald: Thanks for your concern. your support do help me a lot.Thanks haha but must remember to support our JJ too okays:D haha. N okay
i will try my best to stay happie haha:D

To Jolene Jie:Thanks Jolene Jie u r always the best. u r always there when i am down, or i can't sort out my thoughts.Thanks Love u lots =) Jiayou! Stay happie!

To Veron: twinnie Thanks for your support. u r always my best twinnie ever. haha we have the same thoughts of things on a lot of things haha:D N okay i will try to stay happie :D

To Stella:LOLIPOP!! haha ya i guess. it think u know me the best.. u know what i mean by i don't fit in. but i hope time will make me fit in somewhere..

Thanks guys love u lots. u r the best surpport ever.

2010-01-10T05:17:00.000-08:00

Just only i c her on9 again!
i dk if she delete me anot on msn but.
i reali cannot put her down i shall say.
in fact i dk how also.

someone tell me how.
everytime i hear sad songs it made me think of her.
i think she already leave sth in my heart;i dk wad is it but is just there.
soon it will be new year.
so many why is still in my heart

i thought a new year will help me forget her but...
JJ song 100 days.
my first 100days was spent with her n we spilt between this 100days also.
it means my 100days is only for her ba.

what will happen in my next 100days??
i dk. hw hwhwhwhw just hw ma?
or JJ JJ JJ ??
or sth other bad things is gg to happen?

i hate to say this ba i realise i just don't fit in anywhere.
either 3 groups i just don't fit in.

in school with p n s
or d,s,y
or j,y,m ,A

i realise i just don't fit.
u guys r leaving me out.
u guys r telling secrets n don't want to let me know.

i hate being ignore, i hate it when i am all alone!

2010-01-08T06:21:00.000-08:00

After great thinking..
i have decided to put all the memories between her n me in to a big box.
and i will placed it right inside of my store room.
so i won't c her so often n it won't make my heart hurt.

haiz.. how i hope she could just disappear from my mind.
at least i won't cry for her again as i promise myself.

school starts just a week and i already have a lot of homework!
and more tution n stuff coming towards me.
n i will have time crash.. i just hate it.
hahas:D haiz life is like that i got to accept to fact.

Today i also a bit angry with someone,which don't have time limits.
i hate to be late for anything,unless bi bu de yi,or i dk how long i will take to go there.
n i don't like to wait for others that r taking their own sweet time when they know that someone is waiting for her.
is like somethings can be done earier so we can follow the teacher along.
but she choose to wait till when the teachers come den go up to collect her stuff for the next lesson, when she can do it earier.
i serious don't like last limit things also..

i like things to be nicely plan,n it goes according to plan.
some ppl r reali not altomatic, n thinks that they r always right! i just hate it man, everytime i not in wrong i will always apologise..

but in this year i will change.i will change in to better me.

2010-01-06T04:17:00.000-08:00

okay back to school life..
thought i am still thinking of her everytime i go.
she keeps on hunting me where ever i go.
i hope some 1 could just teach me how to forget her sia.
i don't she affect me for my N n O levels this year.
cus is a super important year lo.

and i wanan go to temask poly
a couse of photgraphy.
but must have 6 pts leh
so diffcult.. i must add a lot of oil.. haiz
i also don't know whether i got go through train a not..
sure cannot de lo.. my result r like so average..

2009-12-30T01:50:00.000-08:00

Today i went to white sands myself.
went to buy my school shoes, and stationerys before school reopen.
taking so many things together i reali look like auntie lo..
seriously da bao xiao bao de.

n when i was on my way home..
i saw a bus number 3
inside i think i saw her..
i dk , but i hope it was not her..
cus i really want to avoid her as much as i can..
i c her .. i run away.. den i don't have to face her le ba

n hor today my tutor send me her hw...
what the , so many sia....
don't think can finsh but i will try to complete it thought..
haha.. tomoro is the last day of the year le..
anymore last wishes ?before the year end?
and have u guys thought what is your 2010 new year wish..
both of my wishes,
i hope that i can forget her.
n my friends n gans that i have now will still be my closest friend n closest gans
i hope i will be with u guys 4 ever.
n lastly i hope that every1 will be save n happy:D

haha.:DJiayou

2009-12-25T08:18:00.001-08:00

haha:D today i went to my ah ma house..

dem interesting,cus all my ralative all come together.
er gu,san gu and family,xiao gu and family.
n alltogether is 12 ppl .

we ate together haha.
to celebrate my grand ma birthday n chirstmas haha:D
we had lots of food .
we had desart and wine

thought i hate the taste of wine..
to me it taste horrible.
haha:D haiz few more days school reopen le.

no more play time, all will turn to stress cus N and O levels r ccoming towards me..
haha but lucky u had finsh all my school work already.
so don't need to chong haha:D

still wondering will i be in through train,
i don't want to be a lone in a class with no friends.
i still want to be in the same class as
pearlyn,stella,shuxian,yueshan and dulcia.

i don't want to face her alone :( i very scared..
haiz :D n i am awaiting JJ PARTY 4 haha woots
91 more days haha:D

JJ and to all my friends out there :D jiayou!! (hehe JJ's new song) haha

2009-12-22T03:17:00.001-08:00

2009-12-22T02:53:00.001-08:00

Today is 22 dec,is the last day if the year according to chinese calender.
My parents the cook tang yuan, n a wide spread of dishes..

though i dk y they r cooking.. which they usually don't.. during this day.. they will just
make me eat tang yuan for both lunch n dinner.. haha

Today Jolene jie wrote something on facebook..
which made me sooo happie.. haha
cus at least now i know there is someone who appreacite me.. haha
unlike _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .
haiz i think i need 3 month time to forget her..
as i like her for 3 month..
how i wish i now have an accident.. n i will forget everything...
n relive my life again hahahas

2009-12-18T05:32:00.000-08:00

Today went out with twinnie YuXin (veron) haha
we intent to go out to buy JJ's album together de.
sad we went ti a few shops but could't find..

n today i also met alica.. haha
brought lots of JJ stuff..
a picture bk,book mark,qi dai ai notebk posterand JJ sticker..

sad but i was not happy as i did't get JJ's album.. so i have decieded to go to tampinese to check it out..
n i got a news that JJ album will be out @ 8 pm.. so i went to white sands n
8pm n i got my JJ album OMG
dem happy.. got 2 posters today hehes

2009-12-16T00:22:00.000-08:00

我真的不知道为什么这个世界永远都在生我的气
有没有人能够告诉我。。。
最近爸爸和妈咪不知道为什么一直都在骂我。
哥哥有问我一个莫名其妙的问题。
连我的宝贝jackie也不知道为什么也不理我了，还对我发脾气。
我应该如何是好。

最近还有一个莫名其妙的男生，不认识的，既然问我可不可以当他的女朋友还同时
问了stella 同样的问题。你们说他是不是神经病?
突然之间失去依靠，这是独立吗，还是我是一个没人喜欢的人阿?
自从Ms Denise 的事情发生后发现其实我是无人的朋友。
因为当我想找一个人数苦时，却找不到，找不到一个能够给我意见的人，找不到一
个能够安慰我的人。突然之间觉得原来我一直都是一个人。

以前我一为家是我最好的依靠，因为他们都不会想去伤害你，他们只会保护你。
但我发觉我是错的，因为我会长大，家的感情也渐渐的变谈了。
我也有想过，我还有朋友可以依靠，当我也发现不是每一个都可以依靠。
也许我也应该长大了，不应该在做那个被保护在窝里的宝宝。
也是时候要出去面对一切，勇敢的站起来。

突然领悟，我要学会变勇敢。
我成经傻傻的以为有一个人能够lead me along in life，但我发现我也是错的。
也许连续局里的对白是对的。。
我是因为，一个人太久，孤独太久，一直都找不到一个能够完全信任的人。
而当我碰到她，突然觉得她是一个我能信任的人，所以一直想和她做朋友。
但因为我太过头了，忘了她的感受，忘了她始终是我的长辈。
也或者是因为我最不喜欢一个人的感觉，所以我不希望我身边的人一个人。
因为我非常懂那一种感觉，那一种感觉真的很痛苦。
但是结果我那能依靠的人结果还是离开了我，我想是我把她给推开的吧，
因为我不希望有一天我们连陌生人也做不成。
我不希望她有一天会讨厌我，我不如自己走掉。
但现在她完全就是不利我了，我不知道是对还是错，但我只希望是我们的最好选择。

突然之间，变成一无所有，这种感觉我真的很讨厌，我真的不喜欢一个人的感觉，
这真的让我感到不知所错。我也成经以为我还可以为了俊杰生活下去，但想了想觉
得还是默默支持他就好，不要太过了解他，只知道他的好就够了，我不想有一天我
对俊杰的爱会变成恨。

也有一个朋友成经告诉过我，我们常常说的没人了解我的心情。
但她说事实上谁要去了解你? 你是谁你只不过是一个不通不过的人。
我觉得好对哦这句话。
我一定要学会一个人变勇敢，学会感谢，学会珍惜。
不要抱怨。加油!

说一声加油一切更美好
所有的悲伤请往边靠
曾经流过的泪湿了伤口就让
阳光晒干而褪
这一种加油人人都需要
手牵手我们一起赛跑

关关是难关但我们关关过
雨后天晴的阳光在天空闪闪
所出现了彩虹忽然间我们才懂
如果这是一场马拉松那我们一起加油

加油!

2009-12-15T05:19:00.000-08:00

2009-12-15T01:15:00.000-08:00

Guys u got to get this wonderful album or u will regret :D
JJ's 7 album

100天前谁也无法预测会发生什么
这经历的100天过了多久都无法遗忘…….
没有一丝声音的冰冷关上门独自对抗
只能用仅有的力气打开那一直陪伴的黑白键
想着那爱人时候的自己纯真的模样觉得温暖
倒数计时开始
再见面的时候说一声加油
不再轻易放手可以一起拥抱的未来
不管第几个100天都继续期待着……

在JJ创作第七张专辑歌曲这段时间里，JJ历经了咳血、失声等挫折，不管是身体或是心理，整个人都深陷低潮，一度有着怀疑自己无法再唱下去的深刻无助。对音乐充满热爱，对创作怀抱热忱的JJ来说，这段时间无疑是最难以煎熬的100天。

某一晚，JJ独自在夜深人静的时候关上医院的房门与无声的冰冷相处着，闭上了眼睛突然闪过那时候，曾深爱着一个人的自己纯真的模样，瞬间温暖的力量仿佛掀开了JJ在心中一直相伴的黑白键，扬起了一段听过就很难忘记的旋律……

这首气势磅礴的感人情歌，JJ自己想呈现的就是：『就算面对末日来临，还是愿意放手一搏，明知不可为而为之的坚定信念！』只要愿意相信，不再轻易放手，不管未来第几个一百天，都让人感动的期待着！同时这也是JJ和所有支持自己的朋友的约定，接下来的每个一百天，就算无法预知会发生甚么好与坏，悲与乐。只要愿意相信，再见面的时候，JJ要和大家一起改变命运，迎接更美好的未来！
His album songs :D
01X
02第几个一百天
03加油!(Feat. MC HotDog)
04曙光
05无法克制
06背对背拥抱
07跟屁虫
08一个又一个1
09爱不会绝迹(动画片[恐龙宝贝]主题曲)
10转动
11妈妈的娜鲁娃
12Still Moving Under Gunfire
13表达爱

2009-12-14T01:19:00.000-08:00

hehe home sweet home :D
finally back from malaysia...
missing home, jackie n daddy for 10 days

my poor jackie he don't wanan eat.. n den he slim down..
he is actually 10 kg but now he is only 8kg
he slim down 2 kg poor thing

haha.. i brought a lot of things back haha:D okay not alot.. but not little also haha
i brought:
-1 bag
-2shoes
-2 t shirts
-soviences
-name sticker
-handphone acs
-etc..

haha:D n i saw Siew Ping Jie Jie's wedding.. haha:D
saw Siew Khim Jie Jie's tummy.. haha she has a baby boy inside..
haha no fate to see the baby.. her due date was surpose to be tomoro.. but the doctor end up say.. there might be a delay.. cus the baby don't want to come out yet haha

n saw many other stuff haha, n ya i saw ah wei kor kor haha:D
photos will bw posted on fb:D

4 more days to JJ's album

2009-12-03T04:22:00.000-08:00

Today went out with stella to watch New Moon!

is a nice movie..

got some parts quite excitting haha:D

today i also brought myself a new shirt..

new try haha have never tried this style before haha:D

i am aways on the cute line.. n today i went for the cool line

yes same is C but haha

Tomoro gg to malaysia le.. gg to miss alot of singapore stuff

I AM SOOO GG TO MISS MY JACKIE N MY DADDY

n of cus my friends haahaa:D

2009-12-01T09:30:00.000-08:00

Out of curious!

as u guys know i am trying to let down her..

n she say i am uncomfortable to her..

so of of curosity..

i asked JJ this..

ME:cherie_mui@JJ_LIN JJ,sorry to ask u this random Question.. do u have to get used to ppl admiring u?after being a star?

n i didn't expect him to reply lo actually cus he is a ming xing after all.. i tweet him yesterday

as i didn't expect him to reply so i never go check..

until my friend Joey tell me that JJ reply me..

so i went to check n it was true...

JJ:JJ_LIN@cherie_mui, i never got use to that.. always be thankful if someone appreciates you.

n i yes of cus i am happy that JJ reply me.. but here comes the problem.

in this case i cannot blame her for not getting use to my admiring her..

as JJ a star in this line for 6 year plus cannot even get used to it..

n she .. i think i am the first 1 .. thats y she got scared..

haiz.. but still very happy la JJ replyed me for the first time..

i ask him de Q also not realavent to his new album or stuff..

i am reali a lucky girl .. haha

2009-12-01T01:47:00.000-08:00

haiz.. i am gg back to my tuition life again..
with all the tuition around me.. cannot sack le
haha:D tomoro still have 2 face 2 more stupid new tutiors that my mama arrange..
sian sia 2 leh.. i wanna die la haha

n den on thus day meeting a friend to watch new moon haha:D
my papa say her friend say the show very boring de.. he call me watch hua my lan.. he say that show is nice but i will still watch new moon...

N i am running out of cash.. no money le
hope my papa can give me some pocket money on thus... is not i no money catch movie lo haha
n fri i am off to malaysia (peneng) haha
gg to siew oing jie jie's wedding haha:D excited?
no reali.. just wanan go do lots of shopping..
i wanan but lots of JJ's stuff back wahahaha

but wondering is JJ favmous in peneng?
will his things be sold there?
lets hope have.. n i am gg to buy all of them hahahas :D

n o gosh my hw is not done yet haha
i still have a little bit for poa..
n chinese hw

erm i think i will bring my hw to malaysia to do haha:D

n 1 last asking.. if still nobody disaggree i post that video on fb..
den i will post it on thus before i leave haha

2009-11-29T09:04:00.000-08:00

A video that i made about me.. was just wondering ? if.. can i post this on facebook..

i am afraid that u guys might disagree so.. ya please leave comment on this video thanks:D

2009-11-26T05:58:00.000-08:00

Today went to pass my friend her neo print! at her house haha
Then u went for CCA BBQ
haha is a sucess lo haha unlike our class BBQ lol haha
dem fun.. we BBQ the food n there r teachers
Teacher ,li lao shi,liu lao shi,my ng came
so the place is like dem clean:D

cus got teacher ma..
den we had cakes.. n i took lots if photoes haha
i will post them on fb :D

2009-11-24T19:59:00.000-08:00

After passing so many days.. i have cleared my thought...
there is no pt blamng each other on my birthday that incident ... it will afact our friendship.. that we build hardy for 3 years.. i don't want to be the 1 who destroy our beatiful friendship..is not worth it..

i have also onces think abt giving up her as onces stella said ...
But after thinking n thinking i should trust her...
she is a grown up le.. she be a ble to think herself...
i beileve she won't make the wrong step again...
everything thing that she do there is a reason behind..
i shouldn't suspect her...
she just need some quite time to think things out!

2009-11-23T02:39:00.000-08:00

Today... went to market with adelene for lunch
n i went to her house... n she went to mine..
haha we spent the entire day together...

we chated abt lots of things n she told me that
"she" have already treat me better den a lot of other ppl le
"she" treat me not bad le... i should not ask for more lo

haiz! maybe she is right lo
i must learn to zi zhu le

but i must say sth..
i dk y ppl will scold me on her blog but.. i don't want to care le
i think just let things be st its own ba
i will ask her myself i think as what danial has taught me to

2009-11-21T22:38:00.000-08:00

If everything is my fault...FINE!!

2nd Birthday celebration

2009-11-21T04:30:00.000-08:00

Today.. at first things went reali well
i first wen to my friend house to see her doggie.. hehe dam cute
den i went to pearlyn n stella...

den we had lunch together... n pearlyn n stella brought a cake for me.. i am actually very touch
after that things didn't went well le...
i don't wan to write further.. or i will cry again

but thanks for the wishes guys :D love u lots..

First Birthday celebration :D

2009-11-20T04:21:00.000-08:00

hehe! first meet Shu xian and Yue shan in bus number 12 to go bugis to play haha
in the bus the jouney was dem boring, but when out of the bus.. the fun parts starts haha

we first when to a restruant name hong guo to eat some chinese food
i eat a mix noodle thingy, Shuxian ate pork rib noodle and Yue shan ate beef noodle haha
we eat n chat.. n sth funny happen to Shu xian n mie haha
my Sweet Yue shan made me some dumplings that she made herself ...
so sweet right.. i love the dumpling lo haha

den my dumping kept on droping in to my soup noodle haha
n Shu xian ..... lalala
den we wen to shop around , n den we went to the toliet..
Guess who did i met ?
i met Jolene Jie Jie haha :D

she tab me
Jolene :hii weiqi
Me:hii
Jolene : u gg where
Me: here ( i meant Bugis Juntion ,which is where we r ) haha
Jolene: oh okay

den i very nervous haha.. so i quicky look at the mirror to do my hair haha
cus i did't know that i would meet any friend today haha
den.. we went to take NEO PRINT hahaha:D
dem fun..

den we went shopping again, we went to Bugis street to walk walk ...
actually want to but this Jacket.. but too EX is $25
so i end up never buy...

we went to find a wall that has tu ya ART but can't find it
haiz.. but we found some other kind of tu ya ARTs
n Guess who did i met this time ?
IS Adelene haha.. i did't spot her de..
she spot mie n say hii to me
so i said hii too

i can't beileve that i met 2 JJFC friend to day haha
cus everytime i go out.. hoping to bang on to JJFC de friends de
but everytime don't have..
den Today have haha 2 leh :D
dem happy, den we wen to Bugis arrcade...
n we actually wanted to play the Dancing machine..
but too many ppl we don't dare to play haha

n there is a guy..walking up to me
Guy: my firend over there wants your number can?
Me:*too shock to respone**looking at shuxian n yueshan*
Guy: *pointing at his friend that wanted my number*
Me:*shake my head*

can u beileve it OMG...
too shock to beileve that lo
i not pretty den got ppl want to ask for my number? is like WTH
i think he play a game n lost the game
n he have to take his punnishment ath like that
den come take from mie de lo

haha i think (my immagination) haha
den we go home le

Thanks lots to Shu Xian n Yue shan
for celebrating my birthday with me
love u guys so much :D:D:D:D

ps:pictures too many.. will be post on FACEBOOK! haha

2009-11-17T04:40:00.000-08:00

Today.. i went to bugis.. to help mama pass her stuff..
to my relative lo
dem sian i actually don't want to go de lo...
so far sia.. i still have to go alone leh

haiz... den after pass the things le.. den when home..
when i reach home.
den i fall asleep sian sia haha

den i had a bad dream..
i dream that... my friend did't he zhuo
n the tian also don't want to he zou
make until me soo upset that i walk off
if that reali happens as what i dream..
i only can say i am sorry lo

haiz.. tomoro i also have dancing class a simei
haha studio wu lesson (excited) hehe

Class BBQ

2009-11-16T05:54:00.000-08:00

haha:D today class BBQ
at first hor things did't go well lo..
cus the the tian don't want to he zhuo
raning leh haha:D we do the BBQ under the rain haha:D
dem fun n interesting actually haha

but must reali say thanks to:
-wee kiat ( for doing the BBQ)
-Gretchen (for bring the food, bringing me home , helping in the BBQ )
-shuxian,jia xuan ,yueshan,veron ( for buying the food)
-sadfudin,grant ,pearlyn,shuxian n more (helping to BBQ the food)

thanks u guys for helping haha
as for mie.. erm
i think i only help to hold the umbrella haha n
help to clean up the mess haha:D

but a great n tiring day i can say haha
we stand the entire day haha
n plus the wind is so dem strong... n the rain haha OMG
quite fun la i guess
n this is the part that made me dem ... heart beat go bi bo bi bo..
is like today i am some sort of the photograher.. helping to tale photos
n so i ask danial ... can i take a photo with u haha cus next year maybe gg to different class ma
den he say

Danial : can.. i know i very handsome
i : ...
den a few time cannot lo
we try a few time cus of the lighting..

den suddenly he came.. putting his hand on my shoulder.. u know like boyfriend girlfriend that type.. n i dem shy can haha

Danial :she is my girl friend for today
i keep quite lo.. so shy.. my heart keep bi bo bi bo bi bo
OMG i cannot beilve that sia haha

but ... WE ARE JUST FRIENDS nth more then that haha:D
we r good friends... we r good partners
not ..... ya haha

but hor that feeling also not bad leh haha
so far he is the first guy that do that to me
so i got a shock haha:D lol right i know haha

2009-11-15T06:20:00.000-08:00

Today haha
dem happy.. first i went to white sands n i got myself a new slippers...
haha n i am playing the mac monoploy thingy haha:D hoping to win the $50000 leh
haha but won't so lucky de la haha lol

den i went to my grand ma house to eat dinner..
den went home n go on9 haha

n i did sth OMG
i called her...
i so dem nervous can...
my hands a dem cold... n the way i speak is a....b....c...
like kou chi leh...
o gosh i so stupid lo.. :(

haha:D

2009-11-12T02:58:00.000-08:00

Today went to school to mac to hand in the studio wu form
hahaD n den went homt with brenda
haha

n i sleep the entire day since i reach home haha
sleep until 5.30 den wake up haha
i think i tonight cannot sleep le
den when i wake up call up some music schools to continue my piano class n ai yo
every music school also say must let the teacher access u first
haiz...
i don't want sia... later must go grade 1 again ...

haiz... 8 more days jiayou to mie
haha live in the moment!

2009-11-11T02:59:00.000-08:00

haiz... i think i am not that worry le haha:D is like xin li de big stone can put down le ba haha

yesteday we sms...

n she told mie to live in the moment haha

i think i should too hehe :D

erm... missing my dear JJ Lin

aww i got to wait till 18 dec before JJ new album is out...

i cannot wait haha:D

lucky is on the 18 also haha cus i coming back for malaysia is on the 14 haha:D

i am gg to buys lots of things haha:D cheap n good haha

erm 10 more days haha to the day.. lets see who remebers... haha

at least i would who know am i in your heart

haha:D erm let see busy nov

haha:D

16 -class chalet

18,19,24-studio wu

26-cca chalet

20-outing with shixian,yueshan, dulcia if can

21-outing with pearlyn ,stella n friends

hahaha busy mie..

n papa n mama say i got to start tuition soon haha haiz n play days are over

haha:D jiayoue cherie haha:D

today i also just sew finsh my new cake haha

which i don't find it nice at all... haha:D

2009-11-10T06:35:00.000-08:00

okay not as worry as before le haha:D
cus some things are finally settle down haha:D
my birthday i not so worry le cus things r all plan nicely le wa hahaha
n i am gg to see angela LIVE!!! OMG haha
excited first time see her live OMG n maybe mabel is gg haha:D

n today also dem tired
i went out the entire day haha
first go lavender make kor kor passort thingy
den went to tampi to get clothes
haha:D i got myself a new skirt n a new shoe haha:D
n i brought 3 box of DIY chocolate again O gosh i guess i reali love sewing
haha:D but this time i don't think i am giving any1 any of them i want to keep them for myself haha:D

2009-11-09T00:20:00.000-08:00

haiz...STRESS
but is not abt my exams..
is abt my birthday
abt where to go...
go where to play....
go where to play under my buget...

haiz..
i think my papa is right i cannot pleased every1
n is my birthday i should make the decision n not me following what ppl tell me
haiz... i don't know what to do... i wanna cry le la

at first my plan was
either gg to
-escape theme park
-wild wild wet
-snow city
-go cycle bycycle
-rollor skate
-play badminton

but none of them can lo
1 says don't want la i don't want to play
1 says i have fear of hight..
hello i am not a tian cai
i don't know how to plan things de can

n on my birthday ANGELA is coming to singapore...
i wanna go see.. but i don't think can lo
sure got ppl say dont' want to go de lo
haiz .. i wan to see how does angela look like in person ( so curious)
haha... den i shall see JJ events more crownded or angela's event haha

but this is not the pt la....
how my birthday i think i sure will be dem sad de la
cus until now... i am afraid of hurting ppls feelings
everytime i tell myself i must learn to say NO !
end up i will also let others de
this is me ba... i cannot change the fact...
i will always let ppl if i can

i rather me myself sad den others sad
i won't mind... it on my birthday every1 is happy but i unhappy i guess
first time lo... i guess every1 will have thier first time..
n my time has come..
i will just accept the fact ba...
i also cannot do anything abt it

haiz... help!!!!!!!
must i really be unhappy on that day...
must i ...??
i don't want to...
can u beileve it ..
i am a kai xin guo in every1 heart i think...
but i think i am gg to be sa on my birthday n i cannot look on the postive side of things on my birthday OMG!!!
i got so many things to worry le...

2009-11-07T03:36:00.001-08:00

My drawing of Jackie haha
NICE!!

cool!

POND !!

DIED FISH !!

food!!

Ye Lao Shi n Cherie :D

Stella and Jia xuan

Cherie n Stella

Group photo: Cherie ,Stella,Jia Xuan and Alica

Cherie and stella

more photos on facebook haha:D

2009-11-07T03:01:00.000-08:00

Wa hahaha:D today i went to adelene's school
siglap secondary for a learn chinese thingy....
too bad adelene n pearlyn never come...
i beileve if they come sure very fun de lo haha:D

first in the morning we meet infront of the school gate.. took a bus there
den at first i never saw ye lao shi.. i thought she never come sia.. den i very sad lo
to my surprice she is waiting for us at siglap sec haha:D cus she have car ma.. so i think she drove there herself..

den we went for breadfast at the canteen...
den went for a movie thingy
den went for lunch..
den we went for a book reading session
den TEA BREAK!! wa the food (the cake ) dem nice can haha

den stella ,jia xuan,alica n mie chat with ye lao shi
together we other students
den i finally have courage i ask ye lao shi
ME:can i take a photo with you ? (in chinese)
SHE: erm later we will be taking a group photo down stairs ,later den we take ba (in chinese)
ME:i said okay

den we went for a prize giving ceromony
den we took group photo.. n i took a photo with ye lao shi haha yes!!
haha:D no worries haha i will still be loyal towards JJ LIN, Ms Denise de
haha:D cus i dk y i find ye lao shi very cute so just tan chun de admire her also haha:D
but JJ LIN is still the best yeah !!

N guess wad JJ 7th album will be coming out on the 18 dec
O YES!! i come back form malaysia le haha:D
can go for his events wa hahaha!!

2009-11-06T03:53:00.000-08:00

today posting sth abt JJ LIN
haha:D just saw a new abt JJ on news paper
erm is abt our JJ LIN gg to a charity thingy for the children society...
n JJ LIN donated a MJ album with MJ signature on it
n angela n cheng long both bit for it
it bit for 4 to 5 times...

n end up the album worth 66 million singapore dollars
OMG can haha:D JJ help to the charity thingy earn so much to help the children haha:D
JJ u rock man !!

2009-11-05T04:22:00.000-08:00

hello haha:D
blogging ... time
i shall promise myself .. no more emo image
from mie NOMORE EMO ME
i shall be the happy me again !! yeah!!

nomore unhappyness because of her or any1
i shall just be myself n be confident... just like what she told mie
:D i shall just be who i am ... i shall be the way i am
i shall not change for any 1 yeah!!
that is the best i think

ppl will have to accept who i am... i don't wish to wear any more mian ju infront of any1
i shall just be myself :D:D:D

2009-11-02T05:46:00.000-08:00

2009-11-01T02:54:00.000-08:00

wa haha

today i great day out..

first... met up with caroline at chinatown mrt..
she pei mie go renew JJFC membership thingy...

den we have lunch together n ... at a tart shop near by...

we ate mini pot... haha:D foog quite nice...

den we walk around to buy things n stuff..

den i met up with jiaqi to take my SMG tee haha:D

after i reach home... i found out sth... i told Jiaqi jie n adelene the wrong size ps...

S is can wear but just nice i scare i fat le den cannot wear le..

so i intent to get a bigger size...

will go SMG to change ... sian..

any1 can pei mie go...

got to change within 7 days which means until this friday only..

2009-10-28T22:01:00.000-07:00

erm... i realise sth... i got to always remember that i am not special... i am just normal..
i cannot put too much expectation on her..
ya today sian lo i only can say let that
having lessons here n there...
nn english class i got a badge thingy for the speak good english movement...

n realise sth.. according to my observation today
on my birthday that day i will keep quite n i won't speak.. reali sad but true enough...
but i will just face the fact that i am not speacial... even is my birthday i am still not speacial.. cus to every1 i am a normal person.. same as them...

2009-10-27T23:55:00.000-07:00

hey!!!
i dk what to say today...
first today i a dem busy day...
erm first i dem happy to see her in the morning... i thought i was late.. but end up i am too early... hahaXD class time sian can....
den is POA .. WTF sia have homework

n there is sth i want to say..
yes i like Ms denise a lot n i treat her is my idol..
so what u don't have to push mie towards her.. do u know i n her will feel very weird
n please stop doing decision for mie.... n stop thinking that u know what i am thinking to say sth that is so not right !!!!

i am big enough to make my own decison here... i have my own planing on my birthday.. n i how i am gg to celecrate it... so stop making decision for mie.. i know my own things.. stop thinking that u know what i want... n u just do it for mie... when it is not what i am thinking...

hey i can see that u starting point is trying to help mie... i understand .. you r helping in a wrong way.. n u don't even see it yourself...
sometime... i just tell u my stuff.. n i just want your oppinon n not yoor help...
if i want yoor help i will ask... i won't give hints

n btw stop making mie do things that i don't like to ...
i give u face today... n u de chun jing chi....
n what is wrong of me to admire Ms denise n an idol...
there is nth wrong of it...

n now i am dem not excited n happy n not worry abt my birthday
for the first time of my life... there is some1 doing the decision n things for mie... when is my birthday... is like i am the 1 paying... i am the zhu jiao....
n not u... y are u the 1 planing??? if in that case i rather celebrating with my family...
i maybe at home... i won't go out... at least i won't be upset.. or i won't be alone.. i will have some1 to talk to... n i won't keep quite the entire day of my birthday...
isn't it better... den gg out with lots if stress.... or being rejected on the day of my birthday...

btw i am not refering to Ms denise here!!! or any1 in our class

2009-10-26T22:16:00.000-07:00

1)Besides lips , where is your favourite spot to get kiss ?
- Cheeks .
2) How do you feel when you wake up in this morning?
- excited (:
3) Who was the last person you took photo with ?
- My family members (:
4) Would you consider yourself to be spoiled ?
- dk maybe i a little
5) Would you ever donate blood ?
- yes maybe after i grow up.
6) Have you ever had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex ?
- Have:)
7) Do you want someone dead ?
- nono .
8) What does the last message says ?
- no cca tomoro only got meeting
9) What are you thinking right now ?
-how to celebrate my birthday
10) Do you wish someone with you right now ?
- Yes .
11) What time you went to bed last night ?
- 8.30pm
12) Where did you buy the T-shirt that you're wearing right now ?
- school? i am wearing school PE attire
13) Is someone in your mind ?
- yes
14) Who was the last person who texted you ?
-daddy
15) 10 people tagged to do this quiz [must do horhor]:
1. JINGQING
2. JOLENE JIE JIE
3. PEARLYN
4. PEILING
5. SHUXIAN
6. DULCIA
7. ADELENE
8. JIAQI JIE JIE
9. MABEL
10. YU XIN TWINNIE
16) Who is 2 having relationship with ? [JJ LIN]
- i don't think so
17) Is 3 a male or female ? [Jolene Jie Jie]
- Female
18) If 7 and 10 get together , would it be a good thing ? [Ms denise & JJ LIN]
- i dk leh... both r my idols
19) What is 1 studying about ?
- abt reading n memorising pts
20) When was the last time you had a chat with 5 ? [pearlyn]
- today
21) Is 4 single ? [peiling]
- No
22) Say something about 2 . [Ms denise]
- A reali cute teacher that i have ( my idol )
23) What do you think about 3 & 6 being together ? [Adelene & JJ LIN]
- erm... 1 is my friend n 1 is my idol... i dk leh haha:D
24) Describe 9 . [jiaxuan]
- cute person ..that always do the right thing
25) What will you do if 6 & 7 fight ? [kaiying & lisa]
- stop them from fighting
26) Do you like 8 ? [veron]-
do u want the truth or u want a lie? (:

should u be worried or happy abt it

2009-10-26T21:59:00.000-07:00

erm.. today started off busy n fast...
today before school... Ms denise call stella to pass the message to mie
saying thanks for BABY n the card...
den stella n i went to buy breadfast as usual... n i saw her.. is this fate? yuan fen?
she i said hii to her... hoping that she could say thanks to mie right to the face... but she did't she just asked if i was buying breadfast n eating in the canteen
so i reply no.. cus stella n i we r use to buyint breadfast n eating it at the place that we r use to

den nvm... first period is english...
Mr Tan came in.. n go true the english paper n stuff , then Ms denise came in to do the filling thingy..
den it is PE...
we were playing badminton together ( stella ,pearlyn, Ms denise n mie )
at first i wanted to pair with her... but i end up say i don't want... cus i scare she rang wo... so i rather play against her ...
we den teacher stella how to serve ....n ya...

after a while we rested n chated a while. while Ms denise call the rest to play as a teacher...
i was sitting there don't know wad to do chating with pearlyn n stella
n i saw Ms denise playing with other... no worries i am not angry la... i just watch
den pearlyn ask her a Q that i dk how to face....

n i actually want to ask her myself... but pearyln ask le...
i got a shock out of a sudden n i dk what to do
i got lost in my confuse mine...
i dk if this is a gd idea o anot... i am reali afrad that i would reali get hurt on that day...which i don't want to.. cus is my birthday...
i am afraid that i might get rejected
i am afraid that i might dio sabo
i dk i am just very worried abt it....

actually before the exams i have been thinking how to celebrate my birthday..
should i just celcbrate with my family... ( confirm will be happy )
should i celebrate with friends???
i dk... i am dem confuse... i actually just want everybody to remember my birthday... n i will be happy le....
i reali don't want to got hurt on my birthday... i am reali scare
the first time my birthday i comming n i am not happy n excited abt it... i am more worried... on what is gg to happen...
i know her n my friends too well.....

2009-10-26T02:21:00.000-07:00

Caught on CAMERA haha:D

finally found 1 photo that can prove that i saw JJ on the 16/10/2009 :D

haha but this photo is not by mie... i took it from JJvision.com :D

the 1 with black colour tee with pink bag is mie :D the 1 white is twinnie yu xin :D

n the 1 in grey is JJ LIN haha

2009-10-25T21:45:00.001-07:00

Today i am dem happy haha:D
cus today everbody is happy espeacial her n there r lots if good news hahaha:D
erm first in the morning i super happy that pearlyn i going to lent mie bai quan nu wang... which i wan to watch a long long time ago but cannot watch it on youtube haha:D

then we went to the hall for the CCA point thingy... n i got 18 points which means B3 haha notbad eh haha:D then.. after the thing is a dancing class
can u beilve that DANCING CLASS OMG can haha:D from studio wu leh...
haha:D at first i don't dare to dance out.. cus shy ma haha:D
we satrted off with warm ups... haha:D then i don't dare do de at first , then Ms denise call mie do haha:D i still shy lo haha:D she even touch mie n call mie do.. i think my face red le haha:D

den we started with a simple dance... den i think i am dem happy that i followed a long haha... more relax le... Ms denise also join us with the dance leh.. cool eh
haha:D she dance very nice, haha maybe if she not that nervours n never forget the steps when she is on stage :D she kana sabo from us haha:D cus today her birthday ma...

den the entire sec 3 sing her birthday song leh... haha:D i think she will be dem happy until tonight she cannot sleep le haha:D then after recess we learn some more dance steps dem cool haha ... n hor at first i don't dare to dance infront of Ms denise de lo...
i only dance when she is not near mie...
but got 1 time i never spot her behind mie... den i just dance... n is dem ugly n she saw how ugly i dance omg... my face don't know put where sia...

but afterall i had lots of fun... den is asb.. the best part..
we don't need to wear tie leh... n we had a performance on music...
today dancing n music class all my favourite... is the best day of my life can
den... i also dem happy that she likes BABY haha:D she told mie she love it wa hahaha
super duper happy :D

2009-10-22T22:20:00.000-07:00

erm..today happy cus.. she made eye contact with mie finally
but i am lost n confuse in her... i dk i am reali confuse n sad

2009-10-22T03:29:00.000-07:00

OKay today super not in the mood
sploit by some1
hazi... today at first dem happy cus... today got her class...
den end up she dao mie... n her reason is beacuse she did't notice mie calling her...
WTF sia... i dem angry can..

erm today in elglish class.. gretchen n dulcia was just playing with mie by throwing poor BABY J around the class from dulcia to gret n back to dul n back to gret n danial n back to gret...
i did't stop them cus i got a reason behind... first because i was hoping to get her attention for a least a min or so..
2nd i don't wan to disrube her class...

n this mini test of my go on
guess what she did't do anything... when she saw BABY J was being thrown around... is like.. she colud at least say stop playing return back the pencil case to weiqi... but she never can... is like so.. what she just said was stop throwing animals around n animals r not allowed i tink...
even mie shouting at u telling u that cher gret take my pencil case n don't want give back mie..
trying to attract your attention here.
but i just igonre me
WOW!!! for the first time.. i have some1 igoring mie....
u r the first in my life... n u know it hurt... n u know i don't like it... yet u still do that to mie
do u know how much it hurt...

n i was already abit disappointed le but i ren... den nvm.. i tried to fake to cry...
n even dulcia n gret thought that i reali cry... but she did't do anything... can't u even ask them to stop or sth as a ..... ya but she did nth not even coming thorugh to see if i was reali crying...

is like u dao mie i am already very sad le n now... this simple test can show that i am nth to u...
o am just transparent infront of u... do u know i can be distracted by a little bit of yoor actions
u dk .... it that y.......... ya

or am i too young to understand... or i am not an adult yet.. with a mind that is too childash
hello i am a human ...i have feelings de okay...
do u get my message...
:(:(:(:(:(:(

erm to dulcia n gretchen.. this post is not blaming u or anything, or even trying to scold u or sth... i am just pis by her today .... n sry for using u guys a bit today

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2009-10-19T07:31:00.001-07:00

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2009-10-19T07:26:00.001-07:00

2009-10-18T04:27:00.001-07:00

What a tired day haha:D
today i went out with a identical TWINS
haha:D cool right...

first stella n i met first :D
den we wen to MRT to meet them...
n guess what they r late den....
we went shopping with them..
we took neo print , ate at ajsen for lunch...
n we went shopping ..

n the twins have 2 diffenernt characters
totally different
1 of them like to shop... see sth that she likes she would just buy
another is the 1 who save more haha:d
n more seroius that kind haha:D

den we tooked photos :D haha

reali had fun today:D thanks to them..
they even brought mie n stella each a book to read

2009-10-16T04:26:00.000-07:00

Today What a great day i had... maore gd news
haha first today is the last day of exams n the i find the paper ok not that diffcult haha:D
den at firsh i though i cannot go for JJ SMUDGE event today..

den end up my daddy allow mie to go leh... i so dem happy cus i knoe that JJ will be comming
so i called up alot of JJFC ppl that i know lo...
den end up i met yu xin... we met at chinatown MRT

i faster pack the things i need... i went out for lunch with my daddy...
den i took bus number 6 to white sand interchange to take MRT...
on the way there i watch xin fu you an kang on my MP4
den when i reach....

i waited for yu xin for a while.. then we went to ARK
as first so space lo, is full house... so i went to ask if there is still space for us both to squeue in..
n have leh haha:D
den after i saw lauren.. n her firends

here is the best part....
after the our cake at ARK (america chesee cake)
we went up to SMUDGE
n we saw 2 guys comming down from SMUDGE telling us... JJ is up staris...faster go up
n i went OMG
nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn........................
I saw JJ LIN....
n i went OMGGGGGG
den i keep on looking at him staring at him for 10 mins
happen that i am standing at a gd position... cus i am standing in between him n his friend... so when he saw he friends behind mie... i think he spoted mie haha

den nvm.. lauren n i was far apart... JJ LIN was in the middle of us...
is like I am at the entrance there n JJ is in the middle on the shop n lauren is at the end of the shop.... ahah:D

den i stare at JJ LIN for like 30 ming plus plus... as he finish up his interview...
n out of a sudden

JJ happen to look at me... i smile at him....n
we made i contact... wa hahahahahha
den he smile back at mie too OM tian

JJ said:y r u standing down there, walk around n shop... "smiileing"
i : too shy to say anything "just smile back"

then i look down on the floor... lol
ya i know haha:D

i dema happy can JJ choose mie... he pick mie... to talk to mie...
OMG haha:D infront of so many ppl OMG OMG
... haha den after staring at him for a little more....
lauren mie n yu xin n elaine n yi ping
went down to ARK to eat ice cream haha

today super duper happy
:D:D::D:D:D:D yeah

2009-10-13T22:38:00.000-07:00

Today...i am happy abt math cus... i think i will pass time
but disappointed in my physics, cus i think i will fail badly haiz...

突然累了　u r just part of mie
i don't know what to say abt her le lo
i think i am gg to give up on her i am dem sad.... i only want to find someone i know i can relie on also so diffcult... i don't understand life is so conplicated
first yesterday i was dem happy that she walk up to mie herself

they we were still talking
n today... i find myself in disappointment
if that is reali what she wants... i will reali respect her... i am a understandable person...
i rather i walk away den 1 day she hate mie　
maybe i should just walk away myself n keep a distance away from her i think..

is that what she wants...
i just hate it ppl dislike mie.... i am not popular .. i know that
all i want is to have more friends...
n make ppl around happy as i am..
but i am always rejected... i don't get it
what is wrong with being happy n cheering every1 up...

everytime i help , i would get hurt in the end....
i am reali tired ... i should stop being happy n making ppl happy
i find there is no pt...no 1 is appretating what i am doing....
i will get scolded in the end, or rejected

i also don't like it when...

i means is like u don't like mie, n u don't want me to be close to u
just say la.. don't turn 1 super big round n hint mie...
by turning a super big round i will hurt more... do u understand
i guess u don't..... u know sth u don't deserve to call youself ....

:(:(:( disappointment after disappointment:(:(:(:(:(

2009-10-09T09:09:00.000-07:00

Erm today's paper... aiyo i think i am gg to fail my history paper.. o gosh...
i seriously don't know anything abt it lo... freak... means i got to chong for my ss paper... wth sia...

lucky my chem paper is ok haha:D not too diffcult i still can do haha
i fiinsh in 45 min only can.. n i stlll have 1h left haha

now must concentrated on monday's paper, POA n Ss
chong ah..poa i think i will die can i am just not gd at it... ss
erm i dk lo see lo if like today like that i don't get what the Q wants i sure fail de lo
which i cannot affort to... haiz

JIAYOU!!! to myself :D

2009-10-07T22:41:00.000-07:00

OMG today exam come le... time reali fly pass very fast
haha:D
erm i find the english paper okay la, but not the math paper.
dem diffcult can i think i will just pass, or evven fail can... sad:(
i am gg to chong for math paper 1

haha tomoro is history n chem paper OMG
n i have started in history also must chong le hahaha

n i always thought that "she" find mie irratating
but i realise i was wrong... she actually like more than i thought
she is reali nice actually, she just did see me in the class, but i think in her heart i have a place i guess?!

i don't know i onces asked her
do i have have a place on her heart?
she said of cus every1 have a place...
n i have been thinking... what do i actually expect from her?
normal student place, a person she will remember 4 ever, or some1 speacial..
i am so confused that i don't even know what i want any more

after all i am just a student from her 5-6 class
how much can i expect... should i let go....??
should i forget abt her?? i am feeling so stress...
i don't know what to do ...
i think i now should concentrated on my studies now
n not keep thinking of her/him

....confused...

2009-10-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

2009-10-04T02:35:00.001-07:00

today ah, sian ah
morning wake up go t mall
haha but fish food, but HER present
i have been thinking for a very long time abt it
n finally i came to a decision ahahaXD reali hope she will like it lo
haha

den finsh up poa hw.
n i off to dl JJ video haha found a video den intersting JJ singing
zhe jiu shi ai ma? my favourite song can .. n JJ has a dem shy look
hahaha

2009-10-01T22:59:00.000-07:00

hahaXD blogging time haha
yeasterday oral i was dem nervours haha:D
the reaading part i was so nervours, that the entire table shake lo omg
haha:D n i think i srual up the picture thingy omg nth to say lo
then conversation i think i ok ba haha:D

lol today i had my english paper1 n chinese paper 2
dem diffcult can :D i got stund by the Q :DhahaXD

but i am happy that today i got apprateded by someone, thanks
means is alot to mie, hahaXD

i am tired of being transparent infront of you!

2009-09-29T23:46:00.000-07:00

hey today i am very sad la
i am really tired of being tranparent of you
i can't beileve u did so much for you and end up all i get is nth
can't i even have a place in your heart as a student or as a friend
i really took u as someone really speacial to me
u mean alot to me...
cus u lead me along in this lonely world that i live in
but u everytime forget abt me n leave mie alone...

this feeling sucks really... n u just broke the promise u gave mie yesterday..
i am not expeacting alot from u, but all i want is not to forget me
i am not expecting that u will treat mie speacial, i justwant to be remember by u
n i will happy, but u never did this.

yet u just forget abt mie.. :( :( :( n treat mie as if i am trasparent

2009-09-29T01:54:00.000-07:00

2009-09-29T01:42:00.000-07:00

blogging time:D...
haha today dem happy can.. i finally get a chance to sit down with Ms Denise to eat lunch n for Oral thingy haha:D
first we met her after school, den stella had a oral first, i am so dem nervous again every time i see her O gosh.... my hands a cold like ice n my heart like want to pop out le haha:D den it was my turn when Ms denise know that she has a meeting at 2.30pm so she mange to just go throught the reading at first.

seriuously i read that time i super nervours. no matter how many times i told myself to calm down it just would not work haiz.... she said at first i started off was ok de . den i don't know y i speed up untill so fast that Ms denise n stella got so shock haha:D den
Ms Denise said:slow down relax
I:ok
so i slow down den suddenly Mr Tan come n want to listen.den i stopped
y because i got nervous also
Mr Tan:y i cannot listen ah
I: nono just that u shy ma haha
den ms denise wrote some helping pts for mie

n i said to her:we reali don't have fate
Ms Denise : ya i guess
reali lo everytime i want to meet her she very busy de lo
haiz busy lady haha:D

den to my surprice, she came back,after 5 mins
i saw her n signal to her, i thought u have to go for your meeting?
she saw it n replyed:no the meeting is @ 3om
I:o okay give mie 1 min
Ms Denise:erm ok i also got to have my lunch
I:ok , sit with us together ok
Ms Denise:ya ok

haha:D so we ate lunch together haha:D Ms Denise very quite lo haha
haiz ,den mie n stella must keep finding topic.
haha:D i i had my picture conversation.. i more nervours sia..
i talk half way i jam le cus i forget wad i want to say haiz... :D
so dem shy can haha

anyway i had a wonderful day today haha:D

2009-09-27T05:56:00.000-07:00

hey guys test u guys sth
1) he has a head but has no neck
he has eyes but no eye browns
he has wings but he can't fly
he has no feet ,but can travel a thousand miles
cue :a living thing

2)they are twin sisters,with the same height and same look
they work hard in the kitchen
whenever is cooked, they always try it first
clue: a utensil

3)the guy runs fast but cannot stand
ppl ride this horse that never eat grass
clue:a mode transport

4)when you cry. she cries
when u laugh,she laughs
when u ask her who she is,she does not answe you
clue:an object

guess haha:D
answer will be post in my next post :D

2009-09-24T22:59:00.000-07:00

Today i got pis off by some1 again
some1 named veron (not refering u twinnie yuxin)
can 't i have some private time with Ms Denise.give mie just 10 mins of her time u all will die is it huh!!! don't u have a little bit of li mao... but not interubing when some1 is talking can...
everytime i want to tell Ms Denise sth, ust u interub everytime. do u know this is irratating.
somemore i come first de leh.. can u wait a while.cannot ah, wait a while u will die ah....

hei i understand Ms Denise in not mine... she is our english teacher. but can i just have her time for like 10 -15 mins. CAN I!!!!!! u know sth i hate u!!!!!
do u know what is privercy.....? huh!!!!

2009-09-24T04:14:00.000-07:00

okie blogging time....
today i dem nervious because of somethings can... my heart is beating dem fast can.. n my hand are cold lo.
because i see someone special...OMG heihei don't misunderstand it is not a guy is just another person i admire alot... i think she could be 2nd JJ lin to mie haha:D LOL right haha

today i check my emails. n i found her reply...
so dem nervours when reading it also... den i was dem relief when i know she is not angry for my rudeness sia.... piew....haiz....

n Oral exam comming le
OMG nervous also hai... later i flop it again then i die can.... i super don't know how to desribe the picture can.and the picture is no more cartoon is photogragh leh...OMG everytime i see a new photo i got stund.. i don't know wad to say.. i seriously need HELP !!! argh...
even looking for some1 to pei mie also don't have sian sia...

2009-09-23T00:15:00.000-07:00

today i don't know whether should i be angry with the person a not, or should i thank her. haiz
today at first, i was in a super gd mood de lo.i also talk to ms denise abt the test as we walk together with stella
den lessons after lessons,finally it reach the lesson that i have been waiting for
n i get my test baack also... but the results was't wad i expeacted it to be..
first i reali put in a lot of effort, n i reali study for it can i just can't get the score i wanted.. haiz
n today still got some1, pour mie cold water leh... i serious want to cry in class can

the test i don't want pity marks seriously, i wan the marks i deserve not a fake/pity mark on my report bk.

i serious just want to be mie the happy mie
i admired ppl to keep mie gg in life seriously,
like
-JJ Lin
-Jackie
-charmaine
-ms denise
-jolene jie jie

i hope this ppl would nit hurt mie, cus if they do,it would reali hurt!

just let things go back to square 1

2009-09-19T08:37:00.000-07:00

back to blogging:D
haiz yesterday had a fight wit my mama
sian sia.... she talk to mie abt sth that i don't want to talk abt...
she force mie to say sth that i don't want to say, because i know that if i say she would hurt mie deeper, but she would never understand lo.... hai mie cry the entire night as she force mie to say n end up she scold mie more.... it hurt mie deeper......

seriously i don't dare to trust any1 in the world sia..
y everytime i want to help, everytime i tried the person would always hurt mie deeper...
ppl always say that telling some1 your xinshi u will feel better. i find it not..... i am reali afraid le.... everytime i tell some1 they would scold mie or throw mie cold water... but i sentence on confort also don't have...

i tried telling my father, but he takes my xinshi as a joke n laugh at mie... apparently it hurt mie
i tried telling my mother, but she always thinks that she is always right n she scold mie even more... they r my parents yet yi ju an wei de hua they also don't know how to say...
they still force mie to say my unhappness, life sucks sia... y can't just leave it as it is... i don't force mie to do a flashback n make my cry again n again....

i tried telling 1 of my friend but she chose to betray mie n made mie feel very lonely
i seriously don't dare to trust any1 le...
last time remember having a parents that trutly understand mie without mie telling n now don't even know that...........
they don't understand how i feel can .....

i don't reali dare to tell any1 my feeling any more...
i reali hope that things could just go back to square 1
please don't call mie to do any more flashback... i hate it

but i reali want to thanks my brother for caring for mie...
he is the only1 that understands mie whitout mie even saying

haiz.... am i reali alone, do i have a trusted friend that i can trust....just someine i can talk too...
n the sadest thing is when i have to place to go to n i need a place to let off, i would go to blog, but
when i write all my reali feeling out, ppl acold mie instead
wow!!! this is a terible world, i hate it.......

2009-09-18T01:11:00.001-07:00

wa haha finally weekend le... the day i have been waiting for since mon:D haha
today class is very boring i shall say.... i nearly for a sleep sia haha
n since a few day i realise sth i have a new admirer.... i super admire her sia.. she learn so many things since young n now she dem talented can haha:D super sian mu haha:D

n i am more admired with her determination.... her never give up de jing shen sia:D
she is dem got nai xin to help us....
i don't want to say who she is... la later u guys with laugh at mie de lo...
she super li hai can... she learn how to fight... n even represent singapore for a compertiton
she also know how to play musical intrusment sia....
how i wish i am like her haiz.... looked like i have some ppl that can inspire mie...
hahaXD

n hor exam is like 2 more weeks... argh i am not prepared let argh... so no confdence in this time de exam ... don't think can go throught train this time.... haiz:( wad should i say
today i also actually have tuition at 6 de lo then my tuition teacher tell mie change to tomoro morning... haiz i at first still thought i can sleep until 12 de lo sian.... tomoro have to wake up in the morning tomoro at 10 argh.... sunday also like htat wake up at 10 am:D haiz....

haiz:D i also would like to tell everybody JIAYOU!!!
to:
-jolene jie
-the person i admire
-myself
-my brother
-all students having exams
-my papa
-my mama
-charmaine jie
-JJ LIN
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D::DD:D:D:DD:D ahhahahahahhahahahhaha

2009-09-15T03:34:00.000-07:00

haha:D blogging tiime:D
today dem boring at first...
start of the day english test:D
den is PE haha we played badminton with ms denise haha:D
dem fun can haha:D 2 vs 2.... i paired with gret , pearlyn ,dulcia , shuxian
haha but never pair with ms denise before haha:D yeah the next lesson haha:D ms denise haha u must pair with mie ah haha lol

then is chinese class we do bi ji... n bad news sia...
next tue is chinese test sia haiz....
den is recess pei pearlyn in class cus she never do her chem hw haiz......
den went for recess late lo...

then is chem... actually i find his class ok leh...
my class ppl say that his class suck
i find it ok lo....lol den math argh....
went to computer lap.... seriously i am hating math le lo:D haha

2009-09-12T08:49:00.000-07:00

wa hahaha today i went out with yu xin we went lots of places...
-ark
-ion orchard
-bugis
haha we met at chinatown MRT at first de...
but again i am late haiz.... den we went to ark n have our lunch, we ordered the set meal...
n the waitress call mie mdm?!?!?!
when i am not married!!
haha LOL!!!

den we wen to ion to find the t shirt that we want... but end up
we felt that the design was plain n not own size
so never but in the end..

then we went to bugis to take neo print

haha:D ok too tired n lazy to write more haha pic below

2009-09-12T06:28:00.000-07:00

2009-09-11T06:51:00.000-07:00

dem excited till tomoro...
i am going out with yuxin to a:r:k and the ...the.... "kethl" shop haha:D to buy JJ lin design the t shirt... haha:D can't wait to get the tees on my hand haha:D
i also hope tomoro i have extra time.... den i shall give jolene jie jie a surprise haha:D
haha... at suntec haha:D

:D:D:D:D:D:D
sian also the day after school reopen le....
n i today i also super tired.... cus i yesterday 6am then sleep..... u can say i am crazy cus.....
i do my revision until so late.... haha:D
i just want to prove that i want to get gd results for my exams..... to my parents,...
means even if i fail my exams...... i did tried my best n they know.... haha:D
maybe they will allow mie to join JJFC the next year..... haha:D as i know myself is impossible to score as high as before.... but my parents just wouldn't understand that.....

haiz...... n i also realise sth...... i cannot write my true feelings on my blog....... this is because...
i find that ppl will used my blog post and scold mie........so yeah.... next time i swear i would never write how i feel anymore.....
at first i thoought i could use my blog to relax myself....... but i think this mettod deosn't work anymore
haha:D jia yous! for eveyone for yoor exams:D
JIAYOU!!! JJ LIN

2009-09-10T08:33:00.000-07:00

is currently... lisening to JJFC radio...
haha but fustrated with my lap top... cus today dk y so lack sia.... haiz
make until the radio... keep repeating... so ......

haha.. today i also very fustrated with myself... today intent to go market to check out if the value shop have the bottle a not.... sad sia don't have...haiz.....but i have make xin li zhun bei le haa guess wad i intent to shun bian buy lunch... end up i forgot to bring money... haiz cannot buy anything also.... i also wanted to buy wraping paper tooo.... and weekly U haiz forgot to bring my money ... then cannot buy anything...

so no choice make my way home... n end up eating cup nodles at home.... today i also have 2 tution... 1 is the new science teacher n audrey haha:D sian sia ....
den after eat carrot cake for dinner n followed up watching the show ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni haha:D that show roxx sia haha:D:D

o ya before i forget... haha:D
ppl help vote for JJ LIN
@http://www.singaporehitawards.sg/awards2.htm

haha must ah ahahaha:D
don't vote for other for other guy singers ah
haha:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

JJ Lin JIA YOU!!!!!!!

2009-09-06T08:23:00.000-07:00

haha blogging...
today such i boring day i wake up in the morning n have tuition.... audery's tution i think i am gg to stop tution fro a while.... erm cus i am currently having some problem.... haiz... i used to think that i hate tution... but now ... i reali; wan tuition... i don't want to stop tuition....

n look exams are comming n i am not prepared yet! haiz... i am very de worried for my exams sia... very worried i cannot go through train... i hope my friends can pull mie along... on the speed train n will not leave mie behind alone..... haiz i don't want to be the only 1 left behind... ya i know my grades welll....

n i heard a GD news from jolene jie jie... that the 7 up bottle is sold in SG OMG haha:D i want to buy sia.... so many things i want to buy.... O gosh out of cash.... erm i am also planing to go out with twinnie n flora this sat... hoping that can.... cus holiday i only can go out onces.... so ya... lets hope it works:D

2009-09-05T08:49:00.000-07:00

2009-09-05T08:40:00.000-07:00

yos! haha blogging time:D
today... haiz actully intent to go to bugis to buy a new printer cus old de spolit le haiz....
but if gg to bugis is a kind of of li mao to vist the guan yin temple to respect the god.... haiz... but sui sui today i come menstration.... make until my tummy pain le hell as usuall.... i reali hate it when that day come come cus it makes my mood bad .....

so in the end stay at home the entire day.... after lunch... i watch a movie with daddy at home den... we chated abt world history haha:D lol
den we bath for Jackie haha:D n we brought him down to let the wind dry him... den when to white sand for dinner..... ahaha just because i need to buy my favourite glue... which have the happy face thingy haha:D this time i never buy 1 n i buy 4 so.... i don't have to keep gg to buy... n buy lots of other things too

n guess wad... this message is for all JM
i saw another shop which also name ARK... i cannot believe sia when i first saw it at red hill OMG... i serious got a shock...lol haha but is not a cafe... is a hair "salone" ya i know wrong spelling... ps i dk how to spell haha:D

erm.... ya pictures above enjoy:D

2009-09-04T06:29:00.000-07:00

haha:D posing time ps ah never updated:D this few days i am concentrating on my studies.... cus i wanaan go through train.... reali must chong le haha:D
holiday le starting from today yeah! holiday break:D erm but tonnes of hw is waiting for mie on my study table haiz:D haha:D sad sia i only can go out onces in the holiday week.... n i wanan but the shirt the JJ design in "keith"sth de ps i don't know how to spelling.... ppl who know me i always have this problem..... i cannot spell words haha :P

n i want to go go wit 2 ppl.... my primary school friend Flora.... thinking of that we got 3 years never met le so i think we should met la..... n plus in promary school we were very gd friends haha:D n i also want to go out with my twinnie to buy JJ design the t shirt leh.... i am thinking should i make them go out together.. on the same day.... will be a gd idea.... but i scare later i stuck in the middle.... i dem sad sia....... evrytime i promise ppl that i can go out with them ... but my father yeah.... he is very strict against mie.... he want to me to study..... haiz

so i am supper sorry abt that reali sry....
n plus i am broke i think i now only have 30 plus i think..... but the JJ t shirt n i want
to see the show where got ghost??? but nobody pei mie.... sian i actually want to watch when gg out with flora de but she say she don't dare she want to watch another movie sian!! sian haha:D lol n 28 more days to exam leh sian....

2009-08-31T07:05:00.000-07:00

2009-08-31T06:54:00.000-07:00

o yeah! can relax le... our dance is finally done n is perfect haha:D no stupid comment from the teacher in-charge.... anw HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all teacher that taught mie

my special teachers that taught mie.... thanks a million for passing all the knowledge to mie oor help mie when i needed u ....THANKS :D
they are:
-Mdm Sabaria
-Mdm Chin
-Ms Yap
-Mr Teo
-Ms Tay
-Ms Liu
-Mdm Liu
-Ms Cai
-Mr Tan
-Ms denise
-Ms nor
- etc

N of cus not forgeting my Tuitors:D they reali did help mie
they are:
-Ms Audrey
-Ms charmaine
-Ms cheryl

haha:D thanks am lot for helping mie in my studies:D
erm today also a lot of thing happen....
first when for the performances haha. but i tink i brought the shoe too small.... haiz n cannot change sia is a waste haha:D argh nvm i cannot wear maybe my mummy can wear, her feet is smaller lol.... haha today also have 2 periods of math... lucky my tuitor teach my le if not i sure blur.... just that my tutiors method seem to be diff from school de but i just follow my teacher's method cus i easer.... haha lol