` Friday, April 2, 2010
` ♥ JJ LIN I LOVE U :D,
on that day i look at the way 1 of my friend reacted to me, n i suddenly wake up.
i told myself i should really let the matter down, as i know deep in my heart i don't want to lose her this friend.
yesterday i look through facebook, i saw 3 of my good friends adding her on facebook, actually i am not angry not i am sad, my heart got bitter feeling.cus knowing that i n her r impossible anymore,but at the same time knowing my friends r gg to be close with her.i don't think you guys will understand cus not every1 have experience this.
at first i told myself i cannot add her, cus i promise her not to distube her anymore. but after knowing that she took a photo with the present i gave her, i thought for very long, n i tried adding her n JJ togher. though i know if i want them both to add me is super impossible.
but as i aspected both of them rejected me. haiz i should not have add her, n now i am sad again.
actaully i am reali happy that i still have JJ to motivated me in life, no matter what happen, looking at him will just make me smile, he would just blow my sadness away.
a few days ago i reailse sth there is another kind of ppl living in this world.
ppl who are popular where ever they go, they don't take friendship as their first place.
because they will never be afraid of lonelyness,so they will not think of how others will feel.
but they have never though,how the lonely person will feel.
without friends, do u guys know how terrible is that feeling.u guys don't know just because she guys r popular.haiz i am reali sad for that friend of mine.
i reali appricated if u r one of them we deep inside accept who i am.
i may not know, but i will be able to feel it naturally.
all i can reali tell myself to to be happy n think postive no matter what happen.
i must be back to the old me, the postive minded person.
though so many bad things have influence me last year.
but i aways try to remind myself, i am who i am, i must learn to be brave , n not hide behind the bush all the time.
weiqi jiayou!!! jiayou!!! beileve i can do it! jiayou!!!!
JJ Lin(smudge baby) ♥♥♥
