` Saturday, March 6, 2010
` ♥ JJ LIN I LOVE U :D,
okay i told myself today that i will blog.so i will haha
okay actually many things happen.
first is ALL THAT JAZZ performance at 201. so scary can n silly me , i made mistakes.
den is the cheerleading thing.
haiz, i feel like giving up. but i will tell myself not to.
i can see what is the problem with our dance.
the problem is every1 got every1's ideas n want to do it their way. including me.
i thought i could lead this.
but actually i can't.all well i admit i am sooo not a good leader.
i was born to follow others not to lead.
i have learnt that having experience is not the only factor to lead. u will need to learn how to inspire ppl, u will need to make other have trust in u.
but apparently i only have 1 factor which is experience. haiz i can't insipire ppl or make ppl trust me.haiz... i guess it takes time.
saying of cheerleading, i miss my primary school time.
we reali work as a team, n we don't blame each other. we help each other, we gave suggestion, n we took in all the suggestion to make us the x-radders.
the time i remember ,i think our cheer was.
"we r x- radders cheerleaders,we show u our power"
i forgot the front part.
though i was not the zhu jiao, but i feel imporatant in my team, i feel happy to be performing.
this r reali my memories that i never want to forget. now i am in this cheerleading thing.
i will do my best. i will help, but 1 thing for sure, i give up in leading.
hahaha....
my ex tutior,Charmaine Jie once told me "have faith in yourself never let other intimidate u"
i found it reali meaingful.but i guess i can have faith in myself but, ..... i will let other intimidate me as well. hiaz i will try to be more intipendent n make other rely on me n make other trust me in who i am. haha i know i should always have confident in myself.
yesterday also i was watching a show, the show is saying abt a fat girl. who does not have any friends n her classmate hates her n make fun of her when she is young.when she starts to work ,she cannot to find a job, when she suddenly found a job, her tong shi bully her.n poor thing nobody likes her in her family besiedes her mother.her father found her useless, as she can't do well in her studies, her brother bully her all the time.
untill 1 day she found this group of friends that reali care for her.
but she want to attract attention that made 1 of her friend name shui pi reali angry.
she is so angry that she leave the group but end up getting rape.
she is so gutty that she apologise to shui pi as she thinks that is her fault to qurrel with her. but shui pi refuse to forgive her, n shui pi end up killing her.
this story i find it reali like my life, but i was alot lucky den her.
when i was young, when i am in child care.no1 likes me, n they refuse to be my friend.just because i am not as good looking as them, my hand writhing is not good.
in JJFC i fell slight friendship, but i am reali worry that they will leave me 1 day like the rest.
thats my life i will have to accept it.
JIAYOU!!! weiqi
JJ Lin(smudge baby) ♥♥♥
