` Saturday, September 19, 2009
` ♥ JJ LIN I LOVE U :D,
back to blogging:D
haiz yesterday had a fight wit my mama
sian sia.... she talk to mie abt sth that i don't want to talk abt...
she force mie to say sth that i don't want to say, because i know that if i say she would hurt mie deeper, but she would never understand lo.... hai mie cry the entire night as she force mie to say n end up she scold mie more.... it hurt mie deeper......
seriously i don't dare to trust any1 in the world sia..
y everytime i want to help, everytime i tried the person would always hurt mie deeper...
ppl always say that telling some1 your xinshi u will feel better. i find it not..... i am reali afraid le.... everytime i tell some1 they would scold mie or throw mie cold water... but i sentence on confort also don't have...
i tried telling my father, but he takes my xinshi as a joke n laugh at mie... apparently it hurt mie
i tried telling my mother, but she always thinks that she is always right n she scold mie even more... they r my parents yet yi ju an wei de hua they also don't know how to say...
they still force mie to say my unhappness, life sucks sia... y can't just leave it as it is... i don't force mie to do a flashback n make my cry again n again....
i tried telling 1 of my friend but she chose to betray mie n made mie feel very lonely
i seriously don't dare to trust any1 le...
last time remember having a parents that trutly understand mie without mie telling n now don't even know that...........
they don't understand how i feel can .....
i don't reali dare to tell any1 my feeling any more...
i reali hope that things could just go back to square 1
please don't call mie to do any more flashback... i hate it
but i reali want to thanks my brother for caring for mie...
he is the only1 that understands mie whitout mie even saying
haiz.... am i reali alone, do i have a trusted friend that i can trust....just someine i can talk too...
n the sadest thing is when i have to place to go to n i need a place to let off, i would go to blog, but
when i write all my reali feeling out, ppl acold mie instead
wow!!! this is a terible world, i hate it.......
JJ Lin(smudge baby) ♥♥♥
