` Thursday, August 27, 2009
` ♥ JJ LIN I LOVE U :D,
erm ok back to blogger :D
ok this few day many bad things happen....
like yesterday there is dancing rehersal, chinese oral .... things r just not gg well
i am worried that i cannot score well for my mid year exams....
math teacher is gg so fast in school that i cannot catch up...
n look at this year CA result is so dem bad... this shows sth i got to reali work hard..... n i am reali trying.... but i just could't not....
there is so many things comming out n is giving my a big head ach.... the class performance i am trying to make every thing well but ... nth just gg well nobody just wanan corporate... i hate this ... we all don't want to disappoint mdm sabria but... look at us....i dk.... how to phrase this man... this is the frist time i totally feel like giving up dancing.... my favourite hobby....
but i also know we have been so far ... nobody wants to give up..... yes understanding... mie too ... so can we just bud up... no more crying please... crying serious cannot solve the problem....lets just work this out is't it better....
n yesterday oral.... i think i am gg to fail can.... i got so nervious that i cannot read the ting out n i for the hui hua... ask mie abt the smoking thing.... i also never smoke before sia... n ask mie abt the if u know abt any1 who smoke wad would u do.... i got so nervious that i .... spolit the entire thing....OMG i am already very worried abt it n my mummy actually pour cold water on mie.....
make mie reali no choice... i cannot ren le...i burst out my tears... i super stress sia
cus i know i wanan to continue JJFC....but my papa say if i did no gd for my exams i got to quit JJFC... i super sad sia:( i know myself i cannot.... cus i am not improving but i just stay there is even drop some of my subjects..... i reali have been trying sia.... but just that no1s see that....n that does mean i never study i have tried i have not been using com so mush as before... n only watch tv 1hour a day.... n my mummy say that is too must... i should add more tution n no tv for mie.... i mean...is like i am already vey stress... a day watching my favouritee show also cannot.....
wth i am reali trying....n i already have3 tution i only have every sat to rest... but even my only day of rest she also want to add tution....
she say unless i do well or i don't have the right to talk....abt it... it is so unfair.....
i just realise yesterday that when i am sad u have nobody to talk to ..... becauese.... every1 want to snatch things from mie... my baobei jackie is also sick again i want to take care of him but my brother always take him away from mie.... i use to talk to him when i am sad.... but now even i have jackie he also don't want to talk to mie... my parents....mummy only know how to pour mie cold water n scold mie without knowing the truth.... my daddy he is always busy with his things... i don't want to distube him... i am afraid that if i also qurrel with him.... i am reali nth... he told mie this morning that i am not alone to face all the problem...i have him.... but... that wad he say... but i don't even dare to distube him.....
i just want someone who reali understands mie n know wad i am thinking without mie even saying...but happen but that no1s i there for mie....
my friends... i dk abt i think nobody trust mie.....even i say anything nobody borthers.....do any1 that kind of feelings.... i know i am not a very popular person with always a lot of friends besides mie.... i am not... i am just i normal person... which nobody borther....
i just hope some1 will be ther for mie.....
ok... there is 1 gd news
my lyrics is chosen .... lets just hope that is would win sth.....
i don't want to let JJ, friends down.....
i reali thanks for all the ppl that reali cared for mie.... reali thanks:D
infront of u ...guys....i aways look strong.....it loooks as if i would not cry in a millon years.....
but i do i am qiute soft inside... i am not as strong as u guy think.....
ps this is not a attention post...
is just sth that i got nobody to talk to talk to..... that i got to let it out
JJ Lin(smudge baby) ♥♥♥
